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Applications
Submitting an application
Post your completed application in the comments here, either as a series of comments or as a link.
Then e-mail the app to zenderael@gmail.com, with the character's name in the subjectline.
Yes, we want you to post them and e-mail them. The post is so that other players can see them, and the e-mail is so that the mods can easily organize and search without having to scour a bunch of comments.
Post a top-level comment with the character’s name in the subjectline. Please post the app from their character journal. This makes it easy on us as mods to update all the info and get your character invited to the comms.
Notes on apping
Because Zenderael and the Earth have merged, you can apply for characters who were native to Earth or to Zenderael. Characters from Earth need not have played the game, while characters from Zenderael can be player-made or native (essentially, they were NPCs when it was an MMORPG). You do not need to app a Zenderael character as the former alt of an Earth native, but you can do so. Please tell us if you do this.
Apps
We have two different apps because we have two types of appable characters.
Zenderael Native Characters
Earth Native Characters
Zenderael Native Characters
These characters originate from Zenderael, be it as formerly played characters or NPCs. While the vast majority of Zendereans were never played by someone, there are no restrictions on whether your character was formerly an NPC or alt. The merges may have caused them to go to Earth before the worlds finally combined. If this was the case, please let us know.
PBs for these characters can be real life actors or 2D/CGI.
Earth Native Characters
These are characters that originate from Earth. They may have played the game, or only become aware of Zenderael in a meaningful sense after it began noticeably (and disastrously) merging with the Earth. Since then, they have gained access to class powers by joining guilds, just like Zenderael natives. Characters from Earth could have been sent to Zenderael before.
PBs for these characters can be real life actors or 2D/CGI.
Post your completed application in the comments here, either as a series of comments or as a link.
Then e-mail the app to zenderael@gmail.com, with the character's name in the subjectline.
Yes, we want you to post them and e-mail them. The post is so that other players can see them, and the e-mail is so that the mods can easily organize and search without having to scour a bunch of comments.
Post a top-level comment with the character’s name in the subjectline. Please post the app from their character journal. This makes it easy on us as mods to update all the info and get your character invited to the comms.
Notes on apping
Because Zenderael and the Earth have merged, you can apply for characters who were native to Earth or to Zenderael. Characters from Earth need not have played the game, while characters from Zenderael can be player-made or native (essentially, they were NPCs when it was an MMORPG). You do not need to app a Zenderael character as the former alt of an Earth native, but you can do so. Please tell us if you do this.
Apps
We have two different apps because we have two types of appable characters.
Zenderael Native Characters
Earth Native Characters
Zenderael Native Characters
These characters originate from Zenderael, be it as formerly played characters or NPCs. While the vast majority of Zendereans were never played by someone, there are no restrictions on whether your character was formerly an NPC or alt. The merges may have caused them to go to Earth before the worlds finally combined. If this was the case, please let us know.
PBs for these characters can be real life actors or 2D/CGI.
Earth Native Characters
These are characters that originate from Earth. They may have played the game, or only become aware of Zenderael in a meaningful sense after it began noticeably (and disastrously) merging with the Earth. Since then, they have gained access to class powers by joining guilds, just like Zenderael natives. Characters from Earth could have been sent to Zenderael before.
PBs for these characters can be real life actors or 2D/CGI.
Personality - General Overview
General Overview: Jamie isn't entirely comfortable with who he is, and it's not very hard to tell. His family wasn't sure how to react to an albino kid - it was sheer poor luck that he ended up the way he did. Trying to contend with his parents' expectations was extremely hard for him - he was incredibly sensitive to light and got sick easily. Given, this isn't a background summary, but the issue was that Jamie never really got someone who wholly believed in him. His parents expected things out of him he couldn't achieve, and he felt guilty for letting them down. Given, people picking on him for being visually different - children will be children - was something he experienced a lot in America. Jamie never really felt secure in his own skin there, and he made the jump out the second he could and never looked back. His childhood generated a lot of problems for Jamie - most importantly, Jamie suffers from self-worth, self-esteem, and self-awareness issues. At his core, Jamie is a good person - imaginative, smart, and altogether someone with a strong moral compass. However, he sometimes can't tell right from wrong in social scenarios - a lack of being able to interact with people in a casual setting without expectations or teasing has really stunted his ability to communicate what he wants.
First of all, let's look at Jamie's complexes. Jamie has four major problems: self-worth, an inability to express himself, self-awareness, and his perfectionism. His childhood killed his self-worth and he's never quite recovered: in fact, it's his self-awareness that means he can't build himself back up. In his head, he berates himself for his failures and can't handle his own bad qualities. He strives to be a better person, and whenever he fails he only doubles back and beats himself up over it - it's what he's used to and what he's been trained to do by the people he talked to in his formative years. He's very much a perfectionist because of this - it's hard for him to fail or not succeed, because when he does he only feels like more of a failure for it. As such, he never did competitions - he never found competing with other people fun - and found himself favoring the internet, where he could just dismiss words as words. (Given, he still beats himself up whenever he fucks up on the internet: it's just that he feels the need to beat himself up less because he can disassociate the words he sees from human beings.) This doesn't mean that he's a stuttering, insecure guy: he has multiple walls up to shield this part of himself from other people trying to hurt him. The damage is still done, of course - he does it all on his own - but it's very hard to see this part of him unless you can summarily break down his walls. The only outward evidence is that he apologizes extremely quickly if someone even implies his actions hurt them, and in reality he's perfectly cool with smacking himself in the head when he's apologizing. It's hard enough to hurt, too. His inability to express himself, which is worth a mention, acts as one of his walls to other people - he second-guesses himself a lot and has a hard time understanding what other people want.
What Jamie wants the absolute most is a ~100% understanding~ friend in real life, but he's quite a bit of a shut in - he's yet to meet anyone from the game OOG, and he's scared to try. His most major complex is that he is completely without worth - as such, he shouldn't have friends, and the idea is one he's accepted with reluctance. If anyone tries to prove him wrong and be his friend and actually manages to get through his walls and under his skin, he'll most likely end up confused. His major question would really be 'Why do you care', because he isn't sure why anyone would or should. He's just a dude. He's not even remotely interesting - he's just a dude with no pigment who gets no benefits out of it. He can't be out in the sun, do sports, enjoy himself without lathering himself with enough sunscreen to theoretically block all of the UV rays from the sun for several normal people. Given, he's not sporty to begin with. But... he's just very much someone who understands how little of a person he is, and how useless he can be.
If he ended up in Zenderael, he'd be the absolutely most easily targetted player of the bunch. Period.If you're kind to him and manage to push past the confusion, Jamie's real personality - one that shines through the shield he puts up now and again - is that he's book-smart, maybe a bit witty, extremely loyal, pretty opinionated, and incredibly self-destructive. He values his friends as an absolute - given that he holds himself at the bottom rung, he holds them as better than him. This is part of his self-awareness and self-worth complex, but what it really means is that he's extremely someone who would let himself get hurt for people he trusts. He holds his life under the lives of others to such a degree that he'd be willing to save any one person he likes - however, this is only extended towards friends. He would most likely blame himself if someone was killed in front of him and he could do something, regardless of friendship, but his major malfunction is that he is legitimately afraid people he helps would attack him or hate him in the end. Given, he probably won't be able to help people in most situations - he's a lean, reclusive albino who doesn't often just walk around outside. His ability to help is really limited.
Jamie also has problems understanding other people - if it really wasn't obvious - and is not a very good judge of character. Even when people prove themselves to be nonjudgemental, he's still reserved about his appearance. And whenever people prove themselves to be judgemental, Jamie won't actively avoid them unless someone else suggests he does - he sort of accepts judgement as a constant in his life. On the flipside, he's extremely imaginative - he's very good at thinking outside the box and thinking up scenarios. ... Something else I'd like to note is that most of Jamie's flaws are things he's aware of and dislikes to an extreme. However, it's not something easy people can easily see: as mentioned earlier, he throws up multiple walls to try and protect himself from relationships - in general, all of his internet friends are really the only exception. He can't easily throw up walls in comparison to OOG - it's more challenging for him to deflect things in a world of all text in comparison to a world where he can use body language and expression, too.
In person, to people he hasn't met, he tends to hesitate and generally tends to follow along instead of speak his mind. He won't disobey his moral compass because of what people tell him to do, however, and in general he'll recluse if people try and get him to do or think something he disagrees with. If he's pressured into speaking about what exactly he feels isn't right, he's actually fairly likely to apologize beforehand: even if it's not so much pitiful as it is stern in the sense of "I really don't want to do this gtfo". Overall though, he likes to listen and talks infrequently under his shield - generally, when the conversation is about him, he's cheerful with responses but doesn't give very much to continue the conversation with. There are, of course, exceptions, but in general Jamie listens and speaks little. Whenever he talks, he tends to either follow the general consensus or refuse, depending on his moral compass, andkeep his own opinions to himself. He does actually care about the people he associates with so long as they don't actively treat him like crap - and as such he'll try to not be a burden and stay in their good books. If you couldn't tell, he's very much clingy - though his clinginess isn't immediately obvious. He isn't the sort of clingy to wait for friends before doing things, but rather likes to hang out with people he feels like aren't directly aiming to hurt him. As such, he sort of puts up with a lot. Equally, he generally takes out his own anger on himself - not on the people that are hurting him - and thus never informs people there's a problem unless they press it out of him.
On the same note, Jamie does in fact have emotions and grow angry, sad, happy, and etcetera at thins - it's just that he doesn't ever display them. Most of his outer facade is him actually keeping his own emotions from being seen - thus why he refrains from giving his opinions, as well. In simple terms, he just simply won't show what he's actually feeling if he feels like it's a nuisance or unnecessary - he only cries alone, etc. He won't bother anyone online with Bad, Strong Feels either, and will let them run their course: anger, sadness, etcetera. Much of the anger he lets out is toward himself, at the moment, but if anyone rights his Issues he might actually pull it on others.
Generally, pressing any information out of him gets a lot of disclaimers 'it's my opinion' and a few apologies. (Generally, both symptoms show when people seem to disapprove of his opinion.) He does, however, actually form opinions: he just isn't dead loyal to them. When talking about facts, Jamie is actually fairly casual - facts are facts, to him - although he's not going to provide unless asked. Being bullied about anything they could find kind of dissuaded him from being a fact-provided without being prompted. In the same note, he won't start a conversation unless it's necessary - talking to or being a cashier, or otherwise needing to talk to someone about work. If someone asks him to try, he will - he just doesn't have an easy time of it. He would like to be able to, and if someone garners enough trust, he might actively approach them and start a conversation. He's just not very confident.
Online, Jamie actually feels much more confident. Probably as a side effect of not being immediately judged for his genetics, he can actually comfortably talk with people and actually use some of the wit he has. (However, he's chosen an allusion to his status just simply because he thinks it's a part of him. He also... sort of wanted to warning label himself.) Certainly, he still dislikes himself and still will apologize if he feels like he needs to, but he won't actively start apologizing for an opinion or aything - the looks of disapproval that normally trigger that reflex are things he can't see online. As such, he's got more then one friend online - however, he's also not sure exactly if the person he is online is like him - as well as speculating on what his friends would think if they saw him offline.
As such, Jamie has Problems. He doesn't like the idea of meeting online friends offline, and would need to be heavily pressured to even concede to the idea. However, with the issues of Zenderael, it sort of seems inevitable that he has to exuent from his apartment block at some point.
(He's also entirely unsure how to feel about his character, who he plays as a sort of version of himself in a few ways - some he doesn't even realize. He's not sure how he'll respond to becoming self-aware, and it sort of confuses Jamie. How... should he feel...? The first thing he's most likely to do is immediately ask someone else to be sure his character's alright -- he doesn't trust himself.)
Going to append here, because it was suggested: Just because Jamie's something of a recluse does not mean that he has no friends at all. However, most if not all of his friends are online, and really any other friends would need to: work at the store he works, come in often enough that they've seen him when he has to work the front desk, or otherise talk to him on the street or in the cafe he takes his lunch breaks at. Any friends he's met so far this way won't be under his skin, yet, although I'd be okay with one or two knowing him online. (I am thinking maybe ask players to help me out, here...?) He actually looks strange in comparison to everyone else during the summer - quite a few people wear no shirt and he's in hoodies and covering clothing. As such, it's not a far stretch to have people talk to him simply because he's interesting.
REVISIONS: Append
If you somehow make Jamie angry - even furious - with you, he can bite back. Typically, to get him angry enough to lash out at you, you have to make him weather enough of an emotional assault he can no longer deal with you, period. Typically, when that happens, Jamie cracks. He's someone for both hot and cold anger, depending on the situation: he responds with the same way it was presented to him. He speaks at the same volume as the other person, and if he needs to, raises his voice high enough to overpower them. Typically, after his outbursts, he will actually break out in tears and flee, excepting certain cases. Jamie's not used to lashing out, and it really shows - he looks as shocked with himself about it after the fact as the other might be. Typically, if he lashes out at someone like that, it's extremely hard to get back in his good books - in some cases he'll apologize the second he gets a chance, and in some... he'll actually be willing to go with his own opinion. Still, most apologies won't be "I was wrong", but rather "I was too harsh". He won't deny what he said to the other person, and forcing him to is absolutely impossible. Certain bits and pieces, he may claim he overreacted to - but he won't say he's wrong. And most of the time? His identification of people attacking him is spot on. He might not get people as well as he'd like, but he knows a bully's mindset. Bully him for long enough and he will defend himself. And this boy, for all his frailty, can hurt. Most of his lines of response are psychological attacks or along the lines of "do you think I can't feel". The only way to keep him from blowing his lid in anger is just to avoid bullying him - this was a trait that he only built up after leaving Arizona and realizing just how unfairly he was treated. Given, some of what was said was true. But he recognizes and understands that bullies took what they could get - not everything they teased him for was bad.
It was just easy to humiliate him over.
In any case, Jamie doesn't have any form of long-term seething anger - all of his anger comes in short bursts that aim to stab straight at you. He can't sustain a hateful relationship, and all of the anger that might have gone towards it tends to get directed back at himself. Any attempts to start a hateful relationship will begin with him being a total doormat and end with him exploding, period. If you want to get back in his good books, don't try and crawl back to him - while he will pity you, he probably won't be letting you back in. He refuses to let people who hurt him back in unless they make an effort to change. In other words, while he won't remain angry, he isn't stupid enough to just let someone who drove him to explode back into his life - no matter how apologetic he feels. It takes a lot of pressure on him to start, and he's very reluctant.
It's also woth noting that, while Jamie does want to change all of the behavior he dislikes, he tries to take it on as on mass entity - he isn't quite sure how to overcome it, and as such tends to fall flat on his butt. Of course, when this happens, he feels like he didn't try hard enough and tries again.